Almost A Quitter

As I head back to school in the next few days, I can’t help but be at peace with my decision to keep going. 

As you’ve probably noticed over quarantine, I slowly became absent on The Boardwalk Baker page. I was slowly losing my drive and my passion for this career. I was frustrated with closed doors and caught up in the “more” there is to life and while I had several opportunities before me, it seemed like every single door slammed shut right almost as quick as it opened. I began to wonder if there was a different purpose for my life and I had gotten it wrong up until this point. I was in a state of confusion and disarray with my passion slowly crumbling much like the resemblance of normalcy in 2020. I wasn’t quite sure what to do. 

While I was parked a this roadblock, I decided I would meet with a mentor that I have admired for a very long time.  One that I knew would tell me not what I wanted to hear, but what I needed to hear. Each time we talked I took away more and more information to process, most of which moved me closer to clarity. As the weeks went on, I learned so much about myself and this life I’ve been given. 

  1. When we focus more on what we want for our lives, it only intensifies the pain when life changes or falls short. 
  2. God has given us specific talents and interests for a divine reason that frustration can not overcome because your plan may not be His plan. 
  3. Those frustrations can be eye-opening opportunities to realize you’re chasing the wrong things, but the best is yet to come if you’ll trust the process. 
  4. I realized the passion didn’t fade, it just took on a new form, one that was molded more towards my purpose in life. One that I resisted initially. 

It’s crazy how life works and how everything lines up. When I headed back to school for bread class, I wasn’t really looking forward to it that much. When I stepped back into the kitchen on the first day there was so much peace and a feeling that I was exactly where I am supposed to be. It’s hard to fathom how passion can take a new form.  Without this process I wouldn’t have understood that there is so much more to life than knocking on closed doors….there are friends to make, people to impact, and lives to change. I am determined I was put on Earth to bake this world a better place… one pastry at a time. 

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